Realizations.

It is literally only 12 days until summer session 2 ends, 28 days until the semester starts, 39 days until recruitment, and 137 days until graduation. I have absolutely no idea where the summer has gone, but more so where the entire year has gone so far. Guess that comes with the being busy all the time, but still it seems like the year has just started. 

I saw a picture not too long ago and it was about college. It said something along the lines of "Freshman: I have no idea what I'm doing. Senior: Still have no idea what I'm doing." 

This is basically how I feel about everything. You fail to realize how much is coming up, well, until you finally sit down and look at a calendar. There was so much I was wanting to do this summer, most of which I wasn't able to get done, but the memories made in place of those were completely worth it. I am learning more and more that time is something that I need to stop taking for granted, and that sometimes you do need to stop and smell the roses, but only do that if they smell good.

The next month is going to be insane from ordering announcements, cap and gown, still needing to purchase books (but lets put that off as long as possible), probably should order my class ring, among needing to do many other things. As excited as I am for Fall semester to begin the nerves are finally starting to really set in, and I am currently unsure about how I really feel about adulthood approaching fast. I would much rather go back to childhood where we had naps and could watch Disney movies as much as our heart desired, but sadly that is looked down upon when you have responsibilities, le sigh.

Of course I sit here and now my mind is going in a million different directions, and those who know me know thats a tendency that happens when I really should be focusing on other things at the moment, like putting all of my laundry up. Procrastination is good for the soul, and its what I do best sadly. 

I'm just going to leave this here in the meantime, and am going to attempt to organize some of these thoughts (and clothing) even though its mainly going to end up in me dancing around my room, because what other way is there to clean?